Please forgive me to write this down in English because I will be super busy from today.
Not sure if you like it or not, but I am mad about "IF".
IF means: on the contrary; perhaps even
which means we might be different if you choose different things in the big/key moment.
Of course we won't know because we only know the result what we chose already. But sometimes I still think about it.
if I didn't study in graduate school what I will do?
if I didn't go to Canada, will I be a super Taiwanese ( means trandiational)?
if I didn't come to Japan, I might be to have the same life with others?
It reminds me what I've chosen and all choices change me.
that's why I love watching movies and reading. Because it helps me to think about what I did and what I might be able to choose at the key moment
Anyway, I would like to recommend the novel
ブルーもしくはブルー 山本文緒
It's not new novel but worth to spend time to read it. 
